Survival

Well I survived yesterday and am on to the new day. I start classes again today and am oddly optimistic about them even with the incredible amount of homework that involved with in them. Online classes are harder then in seat classes I have decided. I have done both now and the amount of work that they expect out of you in an online class is staggering. I never had this much work going to an in seat course. That and having two young children (sometimes three if you count my husband) to look after is hard. That and I have a thyroid problem that they are trying to regulate which makes me exhausted. I know this is a lot of whining but where else can I do this? I know that there are many other parents that think the way that I do but do not have a way to voice it.

Many people say thank god its Friday but for me I think thank god for Monday's. I am currently a stay at home mom. I recently got out of the Navy and decided that staying home until my children were able to go to school would be the best way to go. I am now rethinking this whole stay at home thing. I am amazed that people can be around children for so long without going insane. That is unless they too are like children. *side note now all I can see is a group of grown ups throwing themselves to the ground having a tantrum...it is kind of funny. 

I don't think that I could ever become a child care provider. I hate kids...not mine just everyone else's. My eldest son started kindergarten this year and I get a mini break from one of my children. My daughter plays well by herself and I can't complain much about that. I do not have family near by or anyone that can watch them. I love my kids but sometimes I wish that I could give them to grandma every once in a while so that I can take a bath without little fingers under the door. My husband tries to help but he does not always have control of them. When the whining starts with my son my daughter is at the parrot faze so she starts chiming in. I have gotten to the point that sometimes I start whining just to show them how silly they sound. This usually results in laughter and an end to the whining for the moment.

I live for the good moments though. I write this so that I can remember that the good times are there and no matter how stressed I am the good times are there. I just need this blog to vent for right now. It may not always be about me venting my frustrations but for now it is. Here is to another day of survival.